Broken Strings

"...Oh, it tears me up
I tried to hold on but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it's not enough
To make it all okay

You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh, the truth hurts and lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before?

Oh, what are we doing?
We are turning into dust
Playing house in the ruins of us..."

I Wish I Felt the Same

"2 years ago today I got to marry my best friend :) what a wonderful 2 years it has been and man have they flown! (Insert husband's name), I love you more today then I did that day ♥ thank you for making me fall in love with you every day :) happy anniversary my love! here's to many more :) " 

I took this from a friend's facebook status. I see quite a few of these with similar magnitude of affection. When I read this, I realized I can't even say this to him, and about our relationship. I wish I felt as much love as she does about her husband, but I just don't. It's quite sad how my feelings have changed over time from all the things we have gone through. I guess the only good thing I can say is that our relationship haven't gotten worse, nor better. It's kind of existing, day by day, with some minor ups and downs. Maybe one day, a flood of feelings will come back to me and we will be happy again. Maybe this is why I am still here, holding on.