Some Kind of Love

I swear I don't fall in love easily.
I've been dating this guy off and on since October and now we are in a relationship. There are times when we are cuddling or when I'm thinking of him, that I want to say "I love you". The way he hugs me, caresses me, and kiss me makes me head over heels.

He said he may have been in love once when he was younger, but he has never been in love since then. I find that unbelievable. He has been in many relationships. I am curious what the issues were.

Would he know that he is in love when he feels it?

I am trying to not smother him with all my feelings, so I try to hold back a bit. I give him some time to himself, and not text him constantly. If I had a choice, I would want to see him like every day, cuddle with him to sleep every night, and kiss him every morning when I wake up.

I know at this stage the love I feel is not the deep feelings I had with my exes. It is still the love where I care about the person passionately. I am not going to be sharing this with him, because I think he already knows how much I like him. I question how much he likes me though...I can tell he's not as experienced in being in a serious long term relationship.

I wonder if he would say "I love you" first if we ever get to that point. I don't know how long I can hold that in.

Happy Now, Worry Later

On January 10th, 2015 I decided to be happy now and worry about the future later. As cliche as it may sound, life is too short to be unhappy. It is better to make the wrong decision than regret not making that decision.

I don't know what's going to happen in a couple of months, a year, or years from now.
I love to love, and I want to love him.