"All of Me"

I've learned to wear my heart on my sleeves. I share all of me to those I care about and who I think cares in return. Once that is no longer the case, I close myself off and keep my heart safe and concealed. 

I am at the point where I want to shut myself in again, because I see no point...

Current mood: disheartened

Pick One or Neither

I am unhappy with my relationships, but I don't know what to do. Am I not grateful for what I have?

Option #1: I am not in love with him anymore, although I still care. I don't think he's in love with me either. We haven't been able to connect very well.

Option #2: In love with him but I don't think he loves me the same. He's a part of my life but not completely either. We seem to live in the moment, and I still feel alone most of the time.

Should I pick one and continue to work on it? Should I pick neither and be alone? I don't know what will make me happy. All I know is that I am unhappy now.

Disappointed

How disheartening it is to wear your heart on your sleeve and trust without a doubt, and then discover it was all a lie. Oh how the heart breaks...

This is another case to where my feelings of distrust in a relationship is reinforced. I know not everyone is the same, but it's difficult when I've gone through my own share of lies and keep hearing about others.

Although, I am a lie. My whole life is one big lie. I am disappointed at myself as much as I am with others.

Sweet X's

I am sad that something so wrong can feel so right.

It has been over two years since I have felt such sweet kisses. 

I restrain myself often because I know I could lose myself in the moment. 

Is it a moment of lust? A moment of love? A moment that will soon pass? 

My heart and brain is still battling it out. I don't know who to believe yet.