"Who cares?"

Tuesday early morning around 5am, I was disrespected once again by his inconsiderate and insensitive big mouth. I can take a joke but if I'm not in the mood and I tell you repeatedly to stop, you should stop. Instead, you offended me again. Then to make matters worse, when you knew I was upset by all the name calling, you continue to joke about it because you did not care I was upset by it.

Every tear I cried because of you, a bit of my heart breaks and I love you a little less. I couldn't stand it anymore. I stared at the "unfriend" button on facebook and thought about how I might regret it later. I recalled the incident... He doesn't care about my feelings, so why I should I stick around and allow myself to get hurt by this type of "friend". I clicked "unfriend" and his profile picture and name disappeared from my list of friends.

Deep down I still love him and I miss him dearly. Then I realize the person I am missing doesn't give a rat's ass about me. Would he even realize his mistake? Would he even attempt to apologize? Would he change his ways? Would he fuckin' care?

I know I was the one who unfriended him on facebook, and told him to never talk to me again. If you love someone, and you know it's your damn fault, then you would try to make it right. I have hopes that he truly loves me like he said, but I might disappoint myself with such high expectations.

He does not fuckin' care!
I need to learn to not care either.