My head and heart fought continuously about my dilemma, and I sort of arrived at a decision. I picked the one I love unconditionally. I will sacrifice my own happiness to be with my son, because I know he will always bring me happiness when others don't.
Our last argument made me realize that he doesn't love me enough. It's one thing to piss me off but it's other thing to hurt me enough to make me cry. I don't see our relationship working out, and I don't trust him enough that he would make it work. I can't trust to tell him how I feel or think, without him judging me. A best friend would be honest and support me, rather judge me negatively multiple times. It was hurtful, and I can't continue to love someone like that.
I love him and I have a hard time stopping, but I have to let go of people who are not good for me in my life.
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