March 20th he contacted me again and started small talks with me. I straight up told him I don't want to try to be friends. He wanted to talk about our break up and try to make it work again. I asked him to call and talk to me if its worth it. He did.
During our conversation he mentioned that he remembered that I said that I love him. He asked how do I know...
I don't know how he feels about me, especially after such an abrupt breakup. Does he really care? Does he like the idea that I love him? Does he just not want to be alone? Is he just used to having me? I don't know.
There are things that bother me but I think that's how he is. For example, he doesn't like talking on the phone or text me often enough.
I am happy when I'm with him. I am hoping he wants me in his life again because he really cares. I'm starting to doubt he would ever say "I love you" because he doesn't even know how that is suppose to feel like to him.
I hope it hits him hard like a rock to his face! Hehe. His birthday is on the 4th and we have a fun day planned. I like making memories in new places doing new things with him.
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