Raindrops

Oh how I miss the rain right now.

When it's raining, I can stand outside and no one can tell if they're rain drops or tears rolling down my cheeks.

I can cry and pretend the Earth is feeling all my emotions, and the sky is crying with me. I don't feel so alone.

I need you.
I wish you were here.
I miss you, rain.

Frustration

I am so frustrated...with my thoughts, my feeling, and the things I do. Basically, I'm frustrated with myself.

What is the purpose of all of this?
What am I suppose to learn?

When I look back at this moment, will I see a girl who is wiser or just foolish?

Biting My Tongue

I realized I've been opening my mouth too much and sharing more of myself than I should. It puts me into undesirable situations sometimes, which occurred in this case.

I tend to reciprocate the openness of the other person. The more they share, the more I feel comfortable in sharing as well. In this current situation, I've decided it would be best to "bite my tongue". I have to censor the things I say from now on, including my blogs to some extent.

I catch myself often, and I'm learning to replace it with a nod and smile. I will have to find another outlet for those thoughts. Perhaps a more private journal or share them with Secret Bear. :-)




Not a bad sacrifice to keep things at "peace."