I Won't Give Up

"...I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily
I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make
Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use the tools and gifts we got
Yeah we got a lot at stake
And in the end, you're still my friend
At least we did intend for us to work, we didn't break, we didn't burn
We had to learn, how to bend without the world caving in
I had to learn what I got, and what I'm not
And who i am
I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up..."
-Jason Mraz (I Won't Give Up)

I haven't given up yet. I'm still hanging on, and hoping things will work out for the better.
I want to trust, fall, and love all over again.
It takes mutual efforts, so I hope my efforts are not in vain.

Raindrops

Oh how I miss the rain right now.

When it's raining, I can stand outside and no one can tell if they're rain drops or tears rolling down my cheeks.

I can cry and pretend the Earth is feeling all my emotions, and the sky is crying with me. I don't feel so alone.

I need you.
I wish you were here.
I miss you, rain.

Frustration

I am so frustrated...with my thoughts, my feeling, and the things I do. Basically, I'm frustrated with myself.

What is the purpose of all of this?
What am I suppose to learn?

When I look back at this moment, will I see a girl who is wiser or just foolish?

Biting My Tongue

I realized I've been opening my mouth too much and sharing more of myself than I should. It puts me into undesirable situations sometimes, which occurred in this case.

I tend to reciprocate the openness of the other person. The more they share, the more I feel comfortable in sharing as well. In this current situation, I've decided it would be best to "bite my tongue". I have to censor the things I say from now on, including my blogs to some extent.

I catch myself often, and I'm learning to replace it with a nod and smile. I will have to find another outlet for those thoughts. Perhaps a more private journal or share them with Secret Bear. :-)




Not a bad sacrifice to keep things at "peace."