Tracks of my Tears

"...Although I might be laughin' loud and hearty
Deep inside I'm blue
So take a good look at my face
You'll see my smile looks out of place
If you look closer it's easy to trace
The tracks of my tears...

Outside I'm masquerading
Inside my hope is fading
Just a clown oh yeah
Since you put me down
My smile is my make up..."
-Smokey Robinson
  

I like most of the lyrics in this song.
It's about being sad after a breakup but for me, it's about being
sad after being broken.

I got through yesterday without exploding in anger again.
Even when my son threw a bowl of food at me, I didn't
say a word. Although I have been calm in my actions I am
not the same anymore. I will eventually get over being
upset, but I will always be disappointment and sad.

At the end of the day, after holding in all my emotions
I break down. I get away by just going to bed early. Perhaps
in my dreams I would be happier.